everyone is hiding.
because everyone lost faith.
everyone lost trust in others.
everyone fake a smile.
everyone tells a white lie...
everyone is living quitely.
everything is not as simple as it looks like.
everything is complicated.
everything is drama.

i needa stop caring.
i needa stop giving that i dont care attitude.
but...how?

Lyrics: Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

been thinking.
been realising.
been understanding.

this life was just meant to be so tough.
but i hate to say that i want to live on.
because no matter what problems comes in our way,
we should just kill it instead of running away.
you may run now,but soon,no matter how soon,
you will be caught up with the past.
face it. face reality.
in this world..its either u live it or u runaway.

ive learnt that,
i shouldnt been such a pain in the ass.
i could have done nothing and it might change.
change today.
im sorry to you two
i guess,whats done is done?
we gotta learn our mistakes and move along.

understanding.
is an ass killing topic.
theres still alot to learn.
though im still caught up with lots of problems,
im not running away :)
tomorrow will be a better day.
tomorrow will give us hope.

and and.
im starting to get more and more curious about "him"
though i still dont really trust him,
ill let fate decide.
whether i should really go for it.

wanna talk about school too.
i think it has been way too tiring for everyone.
WE NEED A FUCKING BREAK.
dude,we aint machines or robots,
u cant expect us to absorb and practice so many darn things.
seriously,fuck the school management.
i haven even started revising.
i should just find some tall building and jump off the roof.
stupid supervising programn..making me even more stressed.
i need time off.
but theres no time!!!

FUCK!!!!
i wanna be stress-free.
im over working myself.
for school for friends for you...
i need to manage myself properly.
T_T i feel like giving up.
i just feel too tired.
everyday.
hais...
life sucks.
i wish i had started revising earlier...
i wish that theres 48 hours a day.
well...no point crying for it.
i shall start my focus in school.
no more slacking u shithead.
WAKE UP,ITS FUCKING AUGUST SOON.
FUCKING O LEVEL IS GONNA END IN LESS THAN 3 FUCKING MONTH.
IF U DONT WAKE THE FUCK UP NOW,
IT WILL BE TOO LATE.
NO REGRETS MOTHERFUCKER.

sorry im just being abit...crazy currently

"Until U Love U"

You know sometime when u see your self
Just see your self
Someone not good enough
And though there's times when you feel like
You can't do nothing right
And then security takes ahold
Obscures your vision of your soul
You can't see what's inside
Open up your eyes

Take a look in the mirror
You're beautiful
Take a moment to love
The one you are
Learn to accept yourself
'cause this that's true
You can't love nobody else
Until u love u

I know sumtime its so hard to keep
Up your self esteem
Sometime u can feel so small
And its so easy to tell yourself
You're not worth much at all
When you aren't sure of who you are
Now it's tearing you apart
You can't see what is true
Change your point of view

Take a look in the mirror
You're beautiful
Take a moment to love
The one you are
Learn to accept yourself
'cause this that's true
You can't love nobody else
Until u love u

Find what is real is what's inside you
Know there's no one else in this world like you
Take maybe just a little time to start and see
Just who you really are

Take a look in the mirror
You're beautiful
Take a moment to love
The one you are
Learn to accept yourself
'cause this that's true
You can't love nobody else
Until u love u

Take a look in the mirror
You're beautiful
Take a moment to love
The one you are
Learn to accept yourself
'cause this that's true
You can't love nobody else
Until u love

Take a look in the mirror
Take a look in the mirror
Hemm
Take a look in the mirror
Take a look in the mirror
You're beautiful

"Until U Love U"

You know sometime when u see your self
Just see your self
Someone not good enough
And though there's times when you feel like
You can't do nothing right
And then security takes ahold
Obscures your vision of your soul
You can't see what's inside
Open up your eyes

Take a look in the mirror
You're beautiful
Take a moment to love
The one you are
Learn to accept yourself
'cause this that's true
You can't love nobody else
Until u love u

I know sumtime its so hard to keep
Up your self esteem
Sometime u can feel so small
And its so easy to tell yourself
You're not worth much at all
When you aren't sure of who you are
Now it's tearing you apart
You can't see what is true
Change your point of view

Take a look in the mirror
You're beautiful
Take a moment to love
The one you are
Learn to accept yourself
'cause this that's true
You can't love nobody else
Until u love u

Find what is real is what's inside you
Know there's no one else in this world like you
Take maybe just a little time to start and see
Just who you really are

Take a look in the mirror
You're beautiful
Take a moment to love
The one you are
Learn to accept yourself
'cause this that's true
You can't love nobody else
Until u love u

Take a look in the mirror
You're beautiful
Take a moment to love
The one you are
Learn to accept yourself
'cause this that's true
You can't love nobody else
Until u love

Take a look in the mirror
Take a look in the mirror
Hemm
Take a look in the mirror
Take a look in the mirror
You're beautiful

89		days
2159		hours
129584		minutes

TO O LEVEL!!!! FUCK

went to fetch little jas today.
she was late.[as usual] :X

went market to makan.
<3 mango ice kachang

went to the park.
chatt.

went queensway.
short shopping session?

bought contacts for me
for 1st anni <3
gonna wear it tomorrow
mystic grey colour :D

gonna start studying liao.
later someone gon nag at me.
bye bye

i realised nothing much disciplines me.
nothing much motivates me.
no path shows me the right future.

i need to stop being bothered.
i need to start working.
i need to stop slacking.
i need to start thinking.
i have to make it through this final lap.
i have to...

ichibyou no refrain

There's glass art in my heart, that remains untangled I only believe in you, the refrainment I feel
Used to walking to the station along that path Taking out my umbrella on a rainy day I gathered with my usual friends Can't go back Can't go back, to the vending machine I leaned on
I can't find it anywhere, my heart can't be honest I will keep looking for you, wherever you are in this world
*There's glass art in my heart, that remains untangled There's still no one who knows the true me Lying and laughing, it was always lonely somewhere I only believe in you, the refrainment I feel
A face I yearned for long ago Someone who's trembling with sadness Someday my friends will leave I want to see you I want to see you, the person I admire
My precious feelings are already hidden deep in my heart I will keep looking for you more than anyone else in this world
There's glass art in my heart, that remains untangled I want to show you everything about the true me Can you hear me? Can you not? My voice from far away I only believe in you, the refrainment I feel

They Told Him Don't You Ever Come Around Here
Don't Wanna See Your Face, You Better Disappear
The Fire's In Their Eyes And Their Words Are Really Clear
So Beat It, Just Beat It

[2nd Verse]
You Better Run, You Better Do What You Can
Don't Wanna See No Blood, Don't Be A Macho Man
You Wanna Be Tough, Better Do What You Can
So Beat It, But You Wanna Be Bad

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right
Just Beat It, Beat It
Just Beat It, Beat It
Just Beat It, Beat It
Just Beat It, Beat It

[3rd Verse]
They're Out To Get You, Better Leave While You Can
Don't Wanna Be A Boy, You Wanna Be A Man
You Wanna Stay Alive, Better Do What You Can
So Beat It, Just Beat It

[4th Verse]
You Have To Show Them That You're Really Not Scared
You're Playin' With Your Life, This Ain't No Truth Or Dare
They'll Kick You, Then They Beat You,
Then They'll Tell You It's Fair
So Beat It, But You Wanna Be Bad

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It

[Chorus]
Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Who's Right

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right
Just Beat It, Beat It
Beat It, Beat It, Beat It


FOB COVER!!!

"Be Still"

Far, away from it all
You and me with no one else around
A brand new start
Is all we need, it's all we need to mend these hearts
Back to the beginning

Be still
Let it go

Before we lost hope
When we still touched and love wasn't so hard

Be still
I already know

Foolish one with the smile
You don't have to be brave
Every time we fall down
But we're falling from grace
I'll gladly climb your walls if you'll meet me halfway

Slow, slow it down
Why do we run, we're missing so much babe
Just lay in my arms for a while

Be still
We should've known

Foolish one with the smile
You don't have to be brave
I'll gladly climb your walls
If you'll meet me halfway
Every time we fall down
But we're falling from grace
Here's my hand and my heart
It's yours to take

Be still

i wanna jump.
down?

far from home

You said i'm always saying sorre for the same old things
I'm sorry for the drugs and how much I drink
You said I say it so much it doesn't mean anything
I'm sorry my love but I had to leave

I hope most of you will never know
What it's like to let a love go
Leaving everything at home
Everything you've ever known

I can't fix this from a phone
I'm sorry you feel so alone
It's like I told you
You're better off without me
I'm sick of saying sorry
So far from home

You keep calling and complaining that I just don't care
But would you say that if I was there
It's that picture you keep painting
That's causing your tears
I could set you straight if you were here

I can't fix this from a phone
I'm sorry you feel so alone
It's like I told you
You're better off without me
I'm sick of saying sorry
Oh I don't wanna string you along
And that's wy I'm letting you go
It's like I told you
You're better off without me
So far from home

And I don't know how many times I talked to you
And I can't count how many fight I fought with you

sorry sorry

goodbye?

seems like during secondary 1 and 2
we were worrying will we be independent after secondary school?
now it seems like we are worrying what path to take.
seems that im more worried about friends instead of myself.
damn,i needa buck up,pull up,and hit it.
mug mug mug.
i needa mug.
if not now,then when.
im gonna start working hard.

and soon,
indoor sports hall,
perfect night,
graduation.
good bye?

5 years have been too fast.
i could remember what happen all the way back then.
good times.

todays lesson:it takes to hands to clap.
i figured out that no matter how good relationships can get
it will never ever be perfect.
or rather,there is no such thing as perfect love.
because there is no perfect human.
we are born to make mistakes.

figured out this from some qoutes
"usually those who were once happy find that living in the
childhood is much better than the present.They wish to be ignorant."

i wanna spend more time on studies.
i wanna spend more time on relationship.
i dun wan play games already.
so dont bother asking me to.
i wanna sleep 12 hours a day. :D

i wanna have no regrets.
im greedy

warm,
relax,
quiet,
peaceful,
romantic?

Just one more moment, that's all that's needed.
Like wounded soldiers in need of healing
Time to be honest, this time I'm pleading
Please don't dwell on it, cause I didn't mean it

I can't believe I said I'd lay our love on the ground
But it doesn't matter cause I
made it up. Forgive me now
Everyday I spend away my souls inside out
Gotta be some way that I can make it
up to you now, somehow.

By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you, yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you

time cant erase a feeling this strong
no way you’re never gonna shake me
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby

Baby I'm With You
Baby You With me??

Sometimes,i dont smile because,
i've learn not to hide everything inside.

tired.
basketball.
emo.
jap food.
satay.
mango pudding.
home.

give me your pain
give me your anger
let me be your rock
i can be the pillar of strength that you need
ill help you keep it all together
its better late then never
lay your world on me
i can take the weight.

today.
late.
saw kungy scolding some tamil students at the gate.
zhao quickly.
went it room for english lesson.
zzz cats cats cats.
mr siew was telling us how much he wanted to tell derek tat
we got such a great advantage.[aircon room]
sadding news next.
we got chased out of the room cox Mr WONG booked the room.
-,- mr siew and him was like spaming each other with cantonese words -.-

POA-screw vivian saw for pestering me.
did some revision.

recess

phy

cd

home.

i got caught up with this question.
whydidigettaunted?
fuck.

saloon song

It was raining when I walked through the door
I didn't know that I'd find what I was looking for
I saw you there from across the room
Through the haze and the smoke of that old saloon
I tried looking away but I just had to stay

They say that time keeps flying on by
But I keep thinking about that first night

I saw you smiling
I knew I had to talk to you and had to swallow my pride
I heard you telling all your friends you met someone
And how we talked all night
And I still hear you, and I still see you after all this time

I sat down and bought you one more drink
Listened to you talk, I swear I could hear you think
So I asked you "Could I see you again?"
You just laughed and grabbed my hand
You've been holding on tight, ever since that night

They say that time keeps flying on by
But if I'm with you that's alright.

I saw you smiling
I knew I had to talk to you and had to swallow my pride
I heard you telling all your friends you met someone
And how we talked all night
And I still hear you, and I still see you after all this time

And after all the good, the bad, the ugly and the sad
I remember that first day and I still feel the same

I saw you smiling from across the room

I saw you smiling
I knew I had to talk to you and had to swallow my pride
I heard you telling all your friends you met someone
And how we talked all night (after all this time)
I saw you smiling (after all this time)
I saw you smiling (after all this time)
I saw you smiling
I saw you smiling

7/7/09



its been like weeks?
since i blogged?
haha busy busy busy.
studies.guitars.playtime.love.hate.emo.
hmmm no time no time no time.
better cancel out guitars,hate,emo and probably most of the playtime
and focus on studies.

seems tat most of my friends and some teachers are losing faith in me.
example our dear mr heng hock zheng,always find ways to make me feel lousy,
though i know u are trying to motivate me in a different manner,
i dun think really think you are helping much
because what u say,totally didnt motivate me.
it just make me think more negative.
seriously,if u just shut ur big fat mouth,
i can do better.
i know its kinda harsh to post this here,
but,i had enough of it.
"i have my limits."
i told u this before,a year ago.

well,schools have been going to the extreme?
hmm i mean....its really getting me exhausted.
the long lasting periods.
the long lectures.
the boring teachers.
making me sick.

firstly,the sianz thing is tat i got into kungy's group.
which totally sucked.
i really dont like the way kungy teach...i prefer mr siew.
well,no complacent.
[update:yays mrsiew is teaching our group! ]

secondly,i have to thank our mr derek tan for letting me join the lousier group,
taught by mr siew[another teacher].
mr siew is the greatest english teacher in gan eng seng school.
tats how i feel.
when he teach,he only focus on what is necessary,and what is not.
i like the clarity in his speech when he speaks.
haha,makes me feel more comfortable with his vocab.
unlike derek,he suck totally.
bombarding us with chim words,boring lectures,crapy jokes.
sorry to say this but u and ur attitude suck.

next,the excel programe.
ponned today cox i wasnt feeling too good.
had to visit the toilet twice after i've reached home.
supervise studies coming up the next week.
damn i cant wait for PE lesson.
the stupid indoor sports hall better be ready!!!


seems tat everything is going pretty smooth for me.
somehow i do actually pray to "him"...once in awhile.
pray for "his" blessing
i really dunno if "he" actually exist.
having doubts in my mind.

photos will be updated in a later....later...later time.

"Where Is Your Heart?"

I don't believe
In the smile that you leave
When you walk away
And say goodbye
Well I don't expect
The world to move underneath me
But for God's sake
Could you try?
I know that you're true to me
You're always there
You say you care
I know that you want to be mine

Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
That's all I'm asking for
Oh, where is your heart?

I don't understand
Your love is so cold
It's always me that's reaching out
For your hand
And I've always dreamed
That love would be effortless
Like a petal fallin' to the ground
A dreamer followin' his dream

Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
And that's all I'm asking for
Oh, where is your heart?

It seems so much is left unsaid
So much is left unsaid
But you can say anything
Oh, anytime you need
Baby, it's just you and me
Oh yeah

I know that you're true to me
You're always there
You say you care
I know that you want to be mine

Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
That's all I'm asking for
Oh yeah

Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
And that's all I'm asking for
Where is your heart?
Where is your heart?
Where is your heart?
Where is your heart?

damn...kelly clarkson is such a great song writer.

<3 A7X

8 core values

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chase out of lab by chan

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jaming

jamming

in the end we didnt bother to read the tabs

best drummer in town

our first time bassist

hmmm nice angle right?? :D