i realised i was wrong.
should have studied for prelim.
should have studied for mid year too.
if i did,it wouldnt be so hard to catch up now.
hate myself.
regrets.

1 more day to go..
i better cherish all ive got now

yeah,math was easy
but had many mistakes.
:(

buck up buck up.

heard my prayers?
^^ it rained.

math was a breeze.
tomorrow might not be one?

madness.

feel so screwed.
for paying 5 bucks for cab to school.
and because of slippers,we cant join the class.
geez.
give em hell.

tired.
aches everywhere.
sores.
pain.

aqua timez ALONE

Your folded pale wings
are just a little tired from the overly blue sky
You don’t have to force your smile for anyone else
It’s alright to smile only for yourself

Loneliness continues to creep up on me,
a candle alight on the inside
Such a gorgeous chandelier
shouldn’t be at a crowded party, like this one
Why should I bury it all
in the emptiness of words that are lacking?
I don’t know anymore

As long as we can swim freely in our dreams,
we don’t need the sky anymore
Even if I can’t paint over everything
that happened up until yesterday,
I’ll still come out to meet you tomorrow

Inferiority complexes and reconciliations
aren’t things that will come true so easily
The mirror that remains
at the top of self-consciousness reflects flower petals
It looks like my voice is strained
from trying to cry out with an impure love
It’s irritating

In these changing times,
wounds will soon turn into scabs
Without waiting for that to happens,
you’re so beautiful, and so fleeting…

Prayers shiver in the sun,
like traces of down that have come loose
It’s alright not think about loving someone
as being too much for you right now

Sometimes this world is a little bit too dazzling
to walk looking upward in
When you cast your eyes down,
as though sinking, the dry ground slurps up your tears

Why do we feel so alone anytime?
You don’t have to take on everything
Why do we feel so alone anytime?
Just putting up with it isn’t courage

enough of all these.
tell me what u really want.

im not being used.
im just confused.

a stubborn heart can fixed.
a broken heart can be meant.
an empty heart can be filled.
but a locked one cant be helped.

im here for you.
im not here for him.

SUNDAY/hateday

sunday weather makes me feel like
NOT GOING OUT.
but..damn.gotta study.cant study at home
because i always lack concentration. -.-

gonna be study siao again.

im scared.
of O level.
or rather
im scare of regretting.

Pressure pushing down on me
Pressing down on you no man ask for
Under pressure
That burns a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets

Bah bah bah bah bah bah
Bah bah bah bah bah bah

That's o-kay!
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming let me out!
Pray tomorrow takes me higher
Pressure on people
People on streets

Do do do bah bah bah bah
O-kay
Chippin' around
Kick my brains round the floor
These are the days
It never rains but it pours
People on streets
People on streets

It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming let me out!
Pray tomorrow takes me higher higher higher
Pressure on people
People on streets
Turned away from it all
Like a blind man
Sat on a fence but it don't work
Keep coming up with love
But it's so slashed and torn
Why why why?
Love love love love

Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking
Can't we give ourselves one more chance?
Why can't we give love that one more chance?
Why can't we give love give love give love?
Give love give love give love give love give love?
Cause love's such an old fashioned word
And love dares you to care
For people on the edge of the night
And love dares you to change our way
Of caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is our last dance
This is ourselves under pressure
Under pressure pressure

SATURDAY/play day.

went for chemistry late this morning.
didnt have enough sleep i guess.
went gym,swimming and basketball.
worn out now -.-
gonna rest byeee

well,its the last day of school.
bye gess?
no more official lessons
no more screwing around with teachers
sadd

countdown to O lvl end begins.
ONWARD GESSIANS!

Dear Jesus,
please gimme more time to sleep and study.
so that i can have more confidence to screw O level HARD.

from MrHell.

study marathon
tonight.

tomorrow,hell will reach me

went to church again ^^
long service.
plus long lessson by the jc girl.
memorised the cation table.
eh...a great achievement?
but sadly i didnt go school today.
forgot the alarm. -.-
so screwed.

jennifers body is a a nice story.

i realised that we are all too dependent.
most of us are just followers.
monkey see monkey do.
i wanna be somebody.

this is more healthy right?
HAHAHA.
new skins.
new life.
new memories.

finish watching samurai 7.
26 episode.

samurai sacrificing their life for rice.
farmers fighting for their right.

living to protect.
living to harvest.
living for money.

what are we living for?

life pretty much sucked.
something pops up whenever i try to study.
thank god i manage to finish 2 chapter of chem yesterday,overnight.
screw that bitch for trying to discipline me.
who the fuck do you think you are?
trying to boss around all that?
fuck you and fuck off.
i know what to do better than you.
next time i swear your face will end up rotten.

if you people think im selfish,so be it.
if you dont like me then dont get close to me.
you mind your own business,i mind mine.
you fuck around with me,i screw you too.

i still remember how that slap hurt.
i still remember how i got chase out of home.
i still remember how i had never been loved.
i still remember being alone.
guess what?
i got used to all this.
no more mr nice.

the church guys were really friendly.
my new family?

another day without school.
another broken promise.
another failure. -.-

TIME TO ROLL.

i know its been hard on you.
we both know.
your work.
my O level.
we are going to make it.
through this hell -.-