our unconditional love.

its not that im trying to dis you or anything.
but sometimes i really need encouraging words from you instead of,
"if u find someone better i wish u all the best"
wtf is wrong with you?
it doesnt mean that letting go can meant giving happiness,
you go around applying that!
come on,u know i really had a tough day YESterday.
u kept trying to irritate me.
once or twice is alright,but i can tell u this.
sometimes it really hurts,just that i dont show it to you.
i know u missed me alot,thats why i asked u out yesterday.
but instead of picking up my call,u try to ignore me.
and what is this,when i send u home,u just kept walking without turning back to see if im fine.
i guess if i had fainted back there,u wouldnt care until i shouted at you.
who wouldnt be pissed off?
you tell me what to do,not me.
im sick of trying to struggle on with u there expecting everything from me.
i know its a hard road.
we struggled long enough.
but that doesnt mean we have to give up now.
its a race,but the race aint over yet.
stop listening to that retarded song i wanted you. -.-

fuck.i lost my ezlink -.-||
i need a new slipper.
NEW URBAN!
(hint hint)

talking 2 myself

Is anybody out there? It feels like I'm talkin to myself
No one seems to know my struggle, and everything I come from
Can anybody hear me? Yeah, I guess I keep talkin' to myself
It feels like I'm goin' insane, am I the one who's crazy?

So why in the world do I feel so alone
Nobody but me, I'm on my own
Is there anyone out there, who feels the way I feel?
If there is then let me in so that I know that I'm not the only one

helpless situation.

everyone has been there once before?
well i've been there like countless times.
wonder hows pops doing.
should i visit him?
i didn't thought that "that" was a good idea.
so i skipped.
im stuck at home.
im financially broke.
fucked up sis.
fucked up home.
im lonely.
everything is screwed.

no love?

"its a little too late to say

that yours sorry now.

you kick me when i was

down

fuck what you say just

don't hurt me."

Loyalty & Reassurance
You tend to be doubtful about the status of your relationships. You always fear that the end might sneak up on you and you would once again go through the pain and embarrassment of loosing the person you love to someone else.Past relationships have left you with a pessimistic way of thinking and you constantly need reassurance.You want someone who needs and loves you just as much and you need and love them. You want to believe your lover only has eyes for you.

25/8/10 9.09pm

IM SORRY DAD.

i know i've been such a disappointment all these year.
im really sorry.i feel you pain now.
i've never really achieve some to make you proud before.
remember the song "perfect"?
"hey dad look at me,think back and talk to me did i grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along.
it really hurts.. all these years.

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me.

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore."

im sorry dad..im really sorry this time.
i hope god will bless you with all his love.
its been hard for you.
rest well over there...

when hope fails you.
pull up your chin.
there's always another way.

god...its like the 3rd day that im still awake.
haven gotten much sleep yet.
at times like this,there's too much getting into my head.
might blow up anytime?

i was kinda REALLY tired a few hours back,
watching some lame "ghost" movie at wei sin house with kaiz.
i seriously fell asleep instantly.

my cough hasn't been cured.
its been like weeks.
wonder if im really smoking too much or maybe i should just stop.

god damn man...
a problem after another.
fml;

patiences.

(1..2...1,2,3,4)
Shed a tear 'cause I'm missing you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you're in my heart now
Said woman take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar make it slow
And we'll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(inhale) Patience...
Ooh, oh, yeah

Sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now, I'll wait dear
Sometimes, I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love, there's one more thing to consider
Said woman take it slow
Things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes to make it
We won't fake it, Oh never break it
'Cause I can't take it

...little patience, mm yeah, ooh yeah,
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more pati... (ence, yeah)
I've been walking these streets at night
Just trying to get it right (Need some patience, yeah)
It's hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd (Could use some patience, yeah)
And the streets don't change but maybe the name
I ain't got time for the game
'Cause I need you (Patience, yeah)
Yeah, yeah well I need you
Oh, I need you (Take some patience)
Whoa, I need you (Just a little patience is all we need)
Ooh, this ti- me....

has anyone ever wonder if you're the only one suffering so much pain?
enduring,struggling and trying to live on?
wishing and hoping that its the end of your life?
that's a selfish person.

i saw this qoute "dying is the day worth living for"
took me quite awhile to digest this one.
"the day we die is the day where its most worth living for."
if you know that you are going to die,
you'll definitely treasure what you've left,make the best out of it.
thats how the qoute "live each day like its your last" comes about.
then you'll see the idea.
if theres no death,there will be no reason for living.
maybe im wrong.
maybe the afterlife does happens.

in your shadow.

I hate my life,
I can't sit still for
One more single day

I've been here waiting for,
Something to live and die for
Let's run and hide

Out of touch, out of time
Just get lost without a sign
As long as you stand by my side,

In your shadow I can shine
In your shadow I can shine
In your shadow I can shine
Shine.

You see my soul,
I'm a nightmare.
I'm out of control,
I'm crashing,
Into the dark, into the blue,
Into the world of our cocoon.

You're the sun and I'm the moon

In your shadow I can shine
In your shadow I can shine
In your shadow I can shine
Shine

Don't let go-oh, oh, oh no
don't you know?!

In your shadow I can shine
In your shadow I can shine
In your shadow I can shine
Shine!
Shine!
Shine!

In your shadow I can shine
In your shadow I can shine
In your shadow I can shine
Shine!
Shine!
Shine!

In your shadow I can shine

stop complaining,i know im a fucking stealer :X

home.

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.