kinda hate my life now.
when i work,i wish i can go home.
when im off work,i wish work never comes next.
i wanna get paid while sleeping -.-

maybe im just like john.
cant wait for school to start.
idk.

If you can hear this don't assume that I'm talking to you
Yesterday everything I thought, I believed in died
But today is my birthday, today is my birthday

I don't need you, I'll say it to myself
It doesn't mean I won't need somebody
Anyone with half a soul will hear this and they'll never leave me

If you don't know what forever feels like
I'll show you what it feels like without it
I'll show you what it feels like without it

This time I won't hesitate to kill to protect what I believe in
This time I won't hesitate to kill to protect what I believe in

And I can get by now, I'm not really dead
But I really needed someone to save me
Leaving me alone to die
Is worse than having any guts to kill me

If you don't know what forever feels like
I'll show you what it feels like without it
I'll show you what it feels like without it

This time I won't hesitate to kill to protect what I believe in
This time I won't hesitate to kill to protect what I believe in

Not letting you win won't satisfy me
I'll teach you about loss
Not letting you win won't satisfy me
I'll teach you about loss

Not letting you win won't satisfy me
I'll teach you about loss
Not letting you win won't satisfy me
I'll teach you about loss

Not letting you win won't satisfy me
I'll teach you about loss
Not letting you win won't satisfy me
I'll teach you about loss

So watch my chest heave
As this last breath leaves me
I am trying to be
What you're dying to see

I feel like "Fuck man,
Can't take this, anymore,
This heart, break this."
This is life that's so thankless,
How could he just forsake us?

ever felt lost in your own path?
you chosen it and yet?
maybe its not really the path you wanted.

its complicated.

well,i finally got a job.
at raffles hotel - tiffin room as waiter with ah hock.
everyone calls him that -.-
and im the blockhead ah teo there.

today,3rd day of work.
got scolded by one of the manager,yusof.
for being too slow -.-
everyone says ill learning slow
but woot?
no ones teaching me constantly.
been doing chores more than work -.-

well,at least im working now.
better than rotting?
thank the lord.

ciao