been thinking.
been realising.
been understanding.

this life was just meant to be so tough.
but i hate to say that i want to live on.
because no matter what problems comes in our way,
we should just kill it instead of running away.
you may run now,but soon,no matter how soon,
you will be caught up with the past.
face it. face reality.
in this world..its either u live it or u runaway.

ive learnt that,
i shouldnt been such a pain in the ass.
i could have done nothing and it might change.
change today.
im sorry to you two
i guess,whats done is done?
we gotta learn our mistakes and move along.

understanding.
is an ass killing topic.
theres still alot to learn.
though im still caught up with lots of problems,
im not running away :)
tomorrow will be a better day.
tomorrow will give us hope.

and and.
im starting to get more and more curious about "him"
though i still dont really trust him,
ill let fate decide.
whether i should really go for it.

wanna talk about school too.
i think it has been way too tiring for everyone.
WE NEED A FUCKING BREAK.
dude,we aint machines or robots,
u cant expect us to absorb and practice so many darn things.
seriously,fuck the school management.
i haven even started revising.
i should just find some tall building and jump off the roof.
stupid supervising programn..making me even more stressed.
i need time off.
but theres no time!!!

FUCK!!!!
i wanna be stress-free.
im over working myself.
for school for friends for you...
i need to manage myself properly.
T_T i feel like giving up.
i just feel too tired.
everyday.
hais...
life sucks.
i wish i had started revising earlier...
i wish that theres 48 hours a day.
well...no point crying for it.
i shall start my focus in school.
no more slacking u shithead.
WAKE UP,ITS FUCKING AUGUST SOON.
FUCKING O LEVEL IS GONNA END IN LESS THAN 3 FUCKING MONTH.
IF U DONT WAKE THE FUCK UP NOW,
IT WILL BE TOO LATE.
NO REGRETS MOTHERFUCKER.

sorry im just being abit...crazy currently