dear blogger,
u know, i kept reminding myself
the shitty things i've done before
i've repeatedly remind myself to never look back.
but..i just cant.

keeps going on my head.

So nice to see your face again
Tell me how long has it been
Since you've been here
(Since you've been here)
You look so different than before
You're still the person I adore
Frozen with fear
All out of love but I take it from the past
All out of words cause I'm sure it'll ever last

one thing i realised about myself.

i've never managed to move on from the past.

im always stuck somewhere somehow not able to forget.

when u try so hard to avoid it,it just keeps coming back.

i hate it alot when im having a good time and those flashbacks just keeps coming back.

i miss the warm feeling.the feeling when nothing else matters.

i seem to be always lost at some point of life.
nothing seems to interest me anymore.
one question i've never managed to answer.
what do i want in life?
work in the army?
teacher...policeman...?
i want to start my own business :)
opening a restaurant pub :)
but it seems like this dream of mine is never coming true.
well at least i have one thing to work hard for.

Code Geass R2

first time i teared after watching anime.

really nice story :)

2011 resolution:
clear ming's debt slowly
have a saving for friends presents
wait till i get in NS