i almost broke down crying today.
felt really useless and tired of trying.
i know i've been drinking and smoking way too much recently.
never really try to be home early to be with the family and stuff.
feels like im running away again.
but theres no where to run to.
im so sick of myself being this way.
the more i think about it,the more stress i feel.
i know i can do better but maybe im just trying to runaway while i can.
im losing faith in myself.
i dont seem to find my way back again.
(just keep telling myself dont lose hope,theres always a way through)